Current mood:	drained
Current music:	Coldplay - We Never Change

how long can you go 300%?
apparently I could only go 1 month. I'm constantly exhausted all the time now, its only tuesday and at many different points of the day I was near passed out. granted, I was at my first rangers game in three weeks lastnight, and the celebrating afterwards, but still, I was exhausted. today at work I was sent on a spy mission, to see how much a near by liquor store was selling something for. I thought it was hysterical...anyway, on the way back i stop off at a coffee shop and get myself an iced cappucino cause I was dead on my feet. now, having been a consistent soda drinker, I'd been used to a steady stable flow of caffeine. so i dont drink coffee regularly, and had been caffeine free for about a month. after having my cup full o'fun I was way more concentrated then jittery, kinda what I imagine ritalin must be like. more importantly...lastnight was finally back at MSG to see my team in action. lastnight in discussion it was decided when the rangers hustle, they can pretty much beat anyone, its all a matter of turning on that switch. the last 10 minutes of the 1st period they turned it on and took a 2-1 lead on the sabres. 2nd period they went on vacation and were down 4-2. at the start of the 3rd weekes was pulled and lundqvist was put in for the relief appearance. the crowd was cheering, in much support of the move, since they were all cheering for lundqvist during the 2nd period. I didn't think that was fair to weekes, because the team was playing like crap in front of him, and not helping him out. also, the rangers are no longer the best kept secret in nyc. they're growing in pupularity and your fairweather fan wants to see lundqvist play. and ultimately, in a case where your team simply needs a wakeup call, changing the goalie tends to do that. anyway...for starters, lunqvist was SHARP in the 3rd, making some amazing saves, giving the rangers the spark they needed to tie the game 4-4. along the way, Jagr picked up a goal and an assist to tie Adam Graves for most rangers goals scored in a season (52), and Jean Ratelle for most points by a ranger in a season (109). was awesome to see a bit of history, building went nuts and cheering "MVP" for Jagr, who is the clear favorite now I think. anyway...game went to a shootout, which the rangers won 1-0 on a Sykora goal...rangers are back on top in the atlantic AND the flyers lost tonight. playoffs are soooooo close I cant wait.

on another note, I've always believed and told myself the fact that I'm a good person. today I was thinking about decisions I made when I was younger, and I was a real idiot, and real selfish about things. a few things which I totally believed in at the time, and to a point conceptually I still agree with them, but they were probably wrong. so I'm willing to believe my luck, and lack there of with relationships is simply a karmadic (I made that word up I think) response in the big ball of yarn that keeps us all together. live, learn, move on.